I’m a girl
Posted on: September 28, 2008
To be honest, sometimes I do question my gender.
I used to wish I were born a guy and occasionally I still do. Therefore I selectively learn/try to do things that people say “guys are capable of” or “a girl should not do” while still maintain my feminine look. I practice to think, analyse the world like how I perceive guys would do. The only thing I don’t take up is to explicitly behave/appear like them. Why? girls got protected physically or at least people tend to be more gentle to girls and I don’t want to give up this gift from “someone up there”.
As I grow older, I realize conflicts grow in me, a me-guy thinking and a me-girl feelings. They discuss, argue, and fight for no endings, leaving me mess.
I try to be rational and balanced, I try to think cold, I try to be fair, I try to think less. But please forgive me if I become careless, irrational, unreasonable, over-excited, cocky, selfish, shortsighted at times.
I prefer being straight-forward, but please get the hint and follow me if I go around sometimes.
I dislike hanging so long at shopping places but please waste time with me if I suddenly want window shopping.
I tend to be fair but please coddle me if for once I become childish or girlish.
Though I can think, I can’t love in the way guys do. I’m still a girl when I’m in love.
Or you want otherwise?
For memory's sake 
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