Archive for June 2009
Rush and lost
Posted June 20, 2009
on:Nothing seems to be at the right pace recently.
Starting with research work, all the readings turn out useless in the sense that the more I read, the more I realize that the chosen topic is infeasible. So I decided to put that topic aside, look for another one, go for the one that interest me more. Well, the new one has too many gaps to be filled that I don’t know where to start. As deadline draws closer, I don’t even have a sound topic to start with, let alone a proposal. Panicking…
Personal life. So messy, I’ve been living an instinct-led life, leaving plan untouched. My mind keeps wandering for nothing, to nowhere. Sometimes I wonder whether I’m enjoying or getting lost. Time is not on my side now, I realize I never spend much time doing anything, but keep switching amongst the same old things. Am I bored?
As a consequence of no-result efforts, doubts of personal values and ideals become more prevalent, sinking me deeper into the mess. Sigh…